Saturday, December 25, 2004
So I may not be a monarch, [but that is something that I have never been ashamed of], or someone of noteworthy importance but as it is christmas day i feel the need to absorb myself in reflection in the most self-indulgent manner possible; by writing about me.
So I will start by writing 'I'...
I have had a lovely day, as dubious as this genuine admition may seem, today I actually enjoyed giving to the extent that I forgot what presents Id received. Though this may seem like the ideal attitude to hold on Christmas, it cannot be ignored that I therefore did not offer enough thanks to those lovely enough to buy me things. I am sorry. I was touched by each and everyone of your presents.
What was wonderful about today was the fact that I stayed in bed till eleven and then sat around chatting to my family as we exchanged gifts. When this was over we sat, each entertaining ourselves listening to music. I spoke to friends and family, sent and received text messages, visted friends and basically enjoyed a feeling of contentness. In all it's understated glory, my Christmas day was lovely.
I hope that I can enjoy such companionship with loved ones throughout the rest of my life and not just on days such as Christmas whereby such a relationship is especially desirable. As uppity and self rightious as it may sound, as I get older [I have now reached the old age of 20), I feel myself driven to appreciate such times to a greater extent than before. Those you love should be appreciated and as time with people special to me seems to be scarce I feel even more compelled to show my appreciation. The thing is, I know I am selfish, it is in human nature to be so but I know that I sometimes revel in pushing people away, in wallowing in self pity, in using those I love for my own advantage and though I may be conscious of this I do not stop acting in such a manner. This just isn't on, it really isnt so Im going to have to stop being such a selfish cow and appreciate those around me fro I know that I am so fortunate to have such love and support and i shouldn't be aware of this only at times like Christmas day, I should keep it with me whereever I go.
So anyway, heres to appreciating love and glorious, wonderful people, may we all be happy
xxx
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
So I will start by writing 'I'...
I have had a lovely day, as dubious as this genuine admition may seem, today I actually enjoyed giving to the extent that I forgot what presents Id received. Though this may seem like the ideal attitude to hold on Christmas, it cannot be ignored that I therefore did not offer enough thanks to those lovely enough to buy me things. I am sorry. I was touched by each and everyone of your presents.
What was wonderful about today was the fact that I stayed in bed till eleven and then sat around chatting to my family as we exchanged gifts. When this was over we sat, each entertaining ourselves listening to music. I spoke to friends and family, sent and received text messages, visted friends and basically enjoyed a feeling of contentness. In all it's understated glory, my Christmas day was lovely.
I hope that I can enjoy such companionship with loved ones throughout the rest of my life and not just on days such as Christmas whereby such a relationship is especially desirable. As uppity and self rightious as it may sound, as I get older [I have now reached the old age of 20), I feel myself driven to appreciate such times to a greater extent than before. Those you love should be appreciated and as time with people special to me seems to be scarce I feel even more compelled to show my appreciation. The thing is, I know I am selfish, it is in human nature to be so but I know that I sometimes revel in pushing people away, in wallowing in self pity, in using those I love for my own advantage and though I may be conscious of this I do not stop acting in such a manner. This just isn't on, it really isnt so Im going to have to stop being such a selfish cow and appreciate those around me fro I know that I am so fortunate to have such love and support and i shouldn't be aware of this only at times like Christmas day, I should keep it with me whereever I go.
So anyway, heres to appreciating love and glorious, wonderful people, may we all be happy
xxx
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
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